Holy Toledo Ed! I apologize for being so rude. I never imagined (in the world of internet article comment threads) that one should look back at the site where one posted a comment. I assumed that after you get your comment off your chest, you move on and don't look back. Who knew there would be a comment on my comment from none other than Ed the author and valkyrie the grammarian?
Ed I never meant, in my comment, to minimize the potential which second marriages have for success. I meant to maximize the potential for a marriage to be "the" marriage for an individual, not referring to it as his/her "first" marriage and certainly never referring to it by the ridiculous label of a "starter" marriage.
I will never forget the scolding I received from the Rabbi who married us, when I jokingly referred to my one and only wife of 32 years, as "my first wife". He admonished me saying, "Joke about anything else Alan; that's NOT funny."
It’s Not About the Flatware
After two marriages each, my new wife and I are learning what it means to combine households.
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My wife and I met on Aug. 2, 2007, became engaged on Nov. 10 and were married on Jan. 26, 2008. We began merging households in earnest when Candy sold her home in May, and hope to be completely unpacked by August—of 2012. While our challenges are similar in many ways to those faced by other middle-aged newlyweds—melding furniture, flatware, art and appliances acquired over a combined 75 years of adult life—Candy and I have had some additional considerations. So would any two people who think they're only combining living spaces when what they're really doing is placing highly diverse, often opposing, ingredients into a cosmic Cuisinart and hoping the results will be savory.
This is the third marriage for each of us. That makes our experiences sound similar, but our relationship backgrounds are profoundly different, except for the fact that our first marriages were relatively brief misjudgments.
Candy's second marriage ended many years ago, after her husband—enraged by a number of professional and personal disappointments and fueled by booze—took her hostage, at gunpoint, in their home. Candy managed to escape through a window while a retinue of sheriff's deputies talked her husband out of the house.
My second marriage, on the other hand, lasted nearly 29 years. For the first two decades it was a lively, loving relationship, further enhanced by the birth of a daughter when we were both 35 years old. But the last nine years constituted a slow descent into hell: Jane was diagnosed with breast cancer and underwent continuous treatments, each one prolonging her life but diminishing her. Our love went through a number of transitions, and in the last two years I was a full-time caregiver. By the time Candy and I met, both of us brought complete, though not completely matching, sets of emotional baggage to the party.
Strangely, I was the one who'd become cynical about relationships, even though (or perhaps because) I'd had a successful one until its tragic, extended coda. Candy, meanwhile, was the optimist: she wanted to believe in relationships. Whenever we hit a bump in the road, I considered canceling the entire trip. For her, that was never an option. I might be older by four years, but Candy remains the ever-present grown-up, declaring that this, too—the combination of survivor's guilt and jealousy—will pass.
That jealousy, by the way, came as a shock to me, since it has reared its unattractive head only a handful of times during my 57 years. I suppose I resented the fact that in the insulated years I spent caring for Jane, Candy had dated a lot. I came to realize that my emotional growth had, to some extent, been placed under house arrest when I was 27, the year Jane and I first started to live together. Newly widowed in my 50s, I was plunged into a world I didn't recognize, one in which some people fell in and out of love sequentially.
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