Why She Cuts

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Why does everyone make a big deal with cutting???
ive been cutting since this summer,it started with me accsedently cutting my foot witha razor shaving my legs it helped ease my mind from other things going on in my life. so i use a razor but i cut my feet mostly, somtimes my wrists. but if i cut my feet, no one knotices as much. but i enjoy scratching myself better. i will did my nails into my arms,neck,face and just scratch as hard as i can drawing lots of blood. i have alot of scares.and when i scratched my face, my school knoticed. i told them i accsedently scrached myself in myself, i told my mother this also.
I take anti-depressents, but they dont help at all so ive been skipping out on them.
but if i ever told my mother what i enjoy, she would not belive me. she thinks i am wanting attention. so i swore to myself i'm not going to tell her. and i'm fine.

I am fourteen years of age, and just starting high school. But along with high school I've also started cutting. Over the summer it became a habit, and I tried to hide it, but hiding your cuts under long sleeves can be difficult when it's over one hundred degrees outside. That's why my family started guessing at what I was doing, and even after my mother warned me that I would have to go to therapy if I continued, I kept going. So in the end, my mother found a therapist for me. Sometimes it does help to talk about the things that I experience, and the feelings that I have that I can't really talk about with my own mother. Other times therapy just forces me to think about what's going on around me, and those thoughts make me feel even worse after my session. A few times I've arrived home from therapy, and immediately went for the knives I keep hidden in my room. I know that it won't help me get out of therapy, but when I'm acting on impulse... I'm not really thinking. There are a lot of people that would call me pathetic for what I'm doing, and I can sometimes agree with them. But... when I feel alone I don't know what else to do. I'm trying to get through it. I know that I want to stop, and this article has helped me to realize once more how important quitting is to me.

Okay, so like, I've cut myself [on accident] shaving my legs once..and it felt good..so good that I wanted to do it again, but I didn't..because I had made a promise not to purposely cut myself. Well, the point is, that cuts and scrapes, while they may hurt, they feel good at the same time. It does help with the emotional pain one goes through. I'd rather not have emotional pain. Physical pain, to me, is better and doesn't hurt as much. People look at cutters and are all like 'well, that's just dumb' but they don't dare to ask what's wrong, they just think that person is stupid and mental. It's not a mental illness..in some cases, it's a cry for help..in others, it's an attempt to feel something, to relieve emotional pain. Most people don't have very many friends or a good home life and they need some way to get out of that. Some people have a great life with great friends and choose to cut because they just want to feel something. And I've noticed I'm being extremely repetitive so I'm going to hush now. But lemme just say this: If you see someone cutting or someone who looks like their not having the greatest of days, GO UP TO THEM AND BE NICE! It will make their day. Don't be a selfish idiot and say 'oh, well that person needs some help', be nice and friendly, ask them what's wrong. I know I'd like it, when I was in school, I'd sit alone and no one'd care..everyone always picked on me. But yea, I'm out. =]

and i havent felt ral physical pain in a long time iether it doesnt hurt when i cut i barly feel the metal or what ever i am doing to hurt myself it realieves emotional pain for a short time then it briungs me even lower than b4 it numbs the emotional pain for a while until it wears off thats y i do it just like y i use drugs and just like y i used to steal constantly its just like a drug the cutting numbs the emotional pain the stealing covered it with addrenaline and the drugs cover it and numb it with the chemicals that r active inb them.and sorry for the double post it didnt say it registered the first time the text went away and i rewrite it and it didnt come up when i went to all the comments iether so i though it never went in.

im someone that self injures in many ways cutting,friction burning,sticking needls in here and thier and then takeing them out,self piercings and many others i dont talk about it to anyone i am ashamed of it its not something i do for attention i do it for the brief brush with reality and feeling i get from it and when i cut or stick needls into myself thier usually not steral at all i usually just use my knifes that i also use for cutting string/rope/and many other things i dont like attention at all really i usually dont even talk that much and stay away from people i always cover up my marks with a sweater or sweat bands even if its the middle of summer ill wear a sweater to covver it up and not take it off till im alone and bymyself i have cut many times at once with serated or straight edge knifes or a razer even if it was rusty i dont no how i havent got infections yet and when i self pierce or stick a needls in myself its usually off my clothing like a safty pin but i dont leave anything thier and take it out.and i cant stop i can only stop for a small portion of time and then wind up doing it again and cant stop doing it for a long time after i redo it and no it isnt hot or anything its bad and its something that does need to b treated some how and i dont think its one thing that couses it i think its many different mental disabilitys that can couse someone to do it.and i also used to b suicidal but stopped and i also use drugs freaquintly but started cutting b4 i started drugs and i also was a clepto and that was b4 i started cutting so basically i have been switching addictions to addictions and have gaind more if anything and all its done is hurt me more than help me in anyway and i wish i had never started any of it couse now i cant stop the main thing is the self mutilation i still to this day regret the first cut i did and every cut i do now i only feel good for a short time then i feel even worse than b4 oi did it.if anyone is thinking of self mutilating or anything i have done from experience try ur hardest not to do it it doesnt help its a horrable addiction and habit and ull always come down and b in a worse place than b4 u did it i dont want anyone else that has read these words to go the same rout i have or at least try thier hardest to not do it and seek and find help somewhier or some how.and i am also male and dont really no the statistics but one reason i can think of for thier being more documented cases in women doing it is couse self injuries a guy could do then go get into a fight and blame it on that as well.

Thank you for an informative article (after recently reading a piece where the old "attention-seeking" line was used, it's good to see that some journalists do their research).

Drugs aren't really going to help combat self-injurious behaviour or the disorders that might cause it (e.g. borderline personality disorder). People need to learn positive coping strategies to replace the old negative ones. People also need to learn how to self-soothe. For many victims of childhood abuse this can be a difficult ask indeed. I wear long sleeves all the time to hide the burn marks and the razor blade scars. It's shameful to me to see them, so I sure as hell don't want anyone else to.

We all have ways of punishing ourselves...physically and emotionally. Those who don't care if others kill themselves: I'd say you've got some major issues of your own.

The role of journalism is to inform, but responsible journalism should attempt to balance risk. Rather than just publish an article about the problem, a few websites or hotline numbers of agencies that could offer help, or at least, more information, would have been appropriate here.

Publishing such information would have been more in keeping with the public's 'right to know.'

I want to say that I disagree that cutting/self-injury is all about the pain. I used to cut myself, for at least 2 years, and I don't remember it hurting, I didn't do it to feel pain. I did it because I was angry at myself, I felt hopeless. I cut myself because I knew what I was doing was wrong and I was damaging my body. It was punishment. I hated myself and where my life was going, I felt like a failure. I never felt the razor go over my skin, I never felt a sting or pain, it just felt like a strand of hair gliding over my skin. It was seeing the blood run down my arm that calmed me, I felt I deserved it.

There are places that people can go (that self-injure) for help in New Jersey....since this story is based on a girl from NJ, why not give a link or place people can go??? Well, I can't remember the name, but it is in Morris County, a self injury support center and they have support groups and a recovery program going on. I will come back with the name if I find it!

self inflicting is not just a physical relief. self inflicted emotional harm can be just as devastating. it can be a method to cry out for help for those who do not know any appropriate way of expressing their own pain or their own low self esteem. as a child, i not only caused physical injuries to myself, but i also acted out by role playing - solely to avoid being who i was - a person i did not know or like. as i grew up, i engaged in other methods of self destruction - drug addiction, criminally bordered activities, refusal to face reality. finally, at age 48, i finally had enough and sought much desired and much needed therapy. it finally worked, however, i always have to be attuned to the fact that i can easily regress if i complicate my life too much. as such, i try to keep life as simple as possible, even in trying times. so, for those who struggle as adolescents, those who struggle as young adults and those who struggle as adults, there is hope if you can reach inside yourself to find the desire to seek changes to your own inadequacies. i would be glad to assist anyone who has struggled with life and themselves as i have.