America's fixation with beauty is a complex and pervasive phenomenon. For some women, cultivating, maintaining, and creating a beautiful exterior, is a full-time job. In my own experience, first as a child model, and then as an in-store make-up artist, the industry had a profound effect of how I viewed myself.  So in my late twenties when I began studying photography, I felt compelled to revisit these places of beauty as an artist. It was a way to confront my personal demons.  I didn't necessarily want to capture the offices of cosmetic surgeons as they existed in reality, but to capture the promise of beauty and confidence held behind their doors. But during the process of making the following images, I didn't find the 'magic of transformation,' instead, I saw the fears, self-loathing, and anxieties, of those who struggle to measure up to the current cultural expectations of beauty.