'I Thought I Might Lose It'

May 5, 2004

Dearest Becky,

Happy Cinco de Mayo! I am now at the FOB. We are here for a few days. I guess it's okay. I would still rather stay in one spot, though ... Capt Ring said the change was for a little rest and to visit the internet, PC and whatever. I can see his point. My guys are very tired....

There are some people in the platoon that are having marriage problems, mostly it is always about money, of course there is the cheating one also, but that has not come up yet. Every time I hear about those problems, I thank GOD that I found you. I love trust and miss you very much. You are the reason why I fall in love with you every time I hear your voice, look at your pictures, or see you.

Went on a raid last night. Nothing found, including the person we were trying to take prisoner. We think that this person killed one of our Terps. Of course we think that someone tipped him off. Sometimes it gets very frustrating helping the Iraqis. Most of the time you get the feeling that they don't even care if you are trying to help. So we are asking ourselves why are we even here? Of course everyone in the States is asking the same thing. Even if Kerry gets elected we will still be over here for a long time. In fact 1st Cav is already scheduled for 2006 to come back. I just don't think I can keep doing these deployments. Even If I become a helicopter pilot I will still be deployed, and all I want is to be with you....

With all my love,