Inside Karen’s Crowded Mind

my dad molested mefrom the time I was10-14. He got sick and died.How I resented going tosee him in thehospital. He never once did tell me he was sorry.He left me with deep emotionalscars. Thanks a lot dad!
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I was molested by my dad from the time I was 10 years old all the way until I was14. I don'tknow if my mom ever knew. My dad threatenedto beat the he__out of me if I told. He got sick and died. I resented having to go see him in the hospital. He never once told me he was sorry. He totally left me emotionally scarred for life. Thanks dad!

HI, I am just curious, has anyone done this? When a alternate personality emerges; with physical characteristics, manerisms or other manifestations....Has anyone gotten lab work on the patient/personality??? For example; # 10 personality: John Doe; has the lower voice, adult comversation of an middle aged male: draw lab work on him/her...something that would show up in an older male and not a female. I gues PSA is out, but surely there are other labs that are more prevalent in older males vs female. It would be interesting to see. The same would go for a child, ie; labs for an adult femal vs child....hmmm :)
Just curious, Jayne~

Well I was told that I have this problem however I really dont care ... as for me I am the dominant one so the rest of them can go piss !

to some people whom have admittwd of having alter egos...then i must have countless pm! i love perfoming; arts as in therapy aspect...but i've recognized when i was on dissociative mode-----that when i've to numb myself from fearful of being hurt again by my ex-perpetrator. i was on ptsd-alter egos-----mode change!
would i qualify of having multple personal disorder? i for one have concluded that mp=+=ism; is the only way of coping ...in order to suriVive----

I am very impressed with this article. This shows hope and courage for people that suffer from MPD. Being the daughter of a mother that is Schizo-effective Bipolar, a father who suffers from MPD, and a step-father that has Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, this hit me hard, but made me realize that there is help, and knowledge for the ubelieveable, but serious disorders. Medicine has advanced so much in the past, that 30 years ago, this article wouldn't have made any sense. Life with disorders will only get stronger, as time progresses.

I have a friend with this condition, who lived her whole life on another plain, not really understanding our world as we know it. She is deaf, and was never treated as a child. She is 50 and feels like she woke up to the "engish speaking" world in 1991, and with therapy over several years found herself learning about her lapses and with that the memories of her trials and those "others" who "took up" for her. She suffered unspeakable atrocities as a child, in a time when it "was no one's business" what may or may not be happening in another's home. At one point a few years ago I recieved a letter from her written in five different handwritings, each with something different to say, most were children, one was another adult. Very interesting. My friend is trying to write a book about her life, for those of us who know her mostly. We never knew what she went through until she revealed all of it in the mid 90's. We knew the situation in that home was difficult at best, but never dreamed it could be so much worse. These folks deserve our love and whatever we can do to help them. They are truly heroes in their own right, just for surviving. This dear friend is now a teacher of sign for deaf children and knows very well how to relate and when someone in her sphere is suffering. Bless all those who truly suffer with this as they have been to hell and back and these "others" were truly their angels, who stepped in to protect and take the abuse for them. They all have got to be pretty darned intelligent and strong to survive such hell.

I am very impressed with this article. This shows hope and courage for people that suffer from MPD. Being the daughter of a mother that is Schizo-effective Bipolar, a father who suffers from MPD, and a step-father that has Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, this hit me hard, but made me realize that there is help, and knowledge for the ubelieveable, but serious disorders. Medicine has advanced so much in the past, that 30 years ago, this article wouldn't have made any sense. Life with disorders will only get stronger, as time progresses.

It's not as rare as most people think. Anyone who has had moderate to severe childhood abuse has the possibility of developing this condition. In an attempt to avoid the pain, their mind creates an "individual" for each set of circumstances. Sometimes, only two. Other times, many.

I've talked with people who deny having said something or done something that I witnessed them say or do. Their denial is sincere, and puzzling. The background is always abuse. All of us compartmentalize to some degree, without really realizing it. My theory is that those with multiple personalities have simply done this to a much greater degree--to the point where the different compartments are walled off from each other. Yet, each of them actually is part of the whole being. To see these different selves as demons is mostly incorrect. Although, each may exhibit demonic behavior from time to time. This is because fear is like an open door to demonic entry. So, each personality may have demonic attachments. These need to be dealt with spiritually, bringing the person understanding of what has happened and asking God for deliverance.

It generally takes years for a person to come together--10 to 20 years in a lot of cases. The walls have to be broken down, and that can't happen without the agreement of the selves involved. With understanding and affection, the walls soften, and are prepared for breakdown. As laymen, we each play our part in helping those with this condition, when we have identified it. Usually, in the presence of such understanding, the more child-like personalities emerge, and that is a real give-away. They are coming out, hoping to pick up on their lost parenting. If they are received and parented, they pick up at the point where they split off, and begin to mature. This can happen at a much faster rate than normal growth. It is part of the work of reuniting the selves into a whole being.+

I would just like to thank everyone who shared thier experiences with MPD (or DID). I work in the mental health field with children and teens, and often this disorder is looked at as a fictional one. I feel that those who suffer from it often already lack support in thier lives and the lack of support in the mental health field only makes it a longer journey till they can get asssistance. I feel that often there is a lack of support out there, hopefully if more supportive people can provide safe environments for people to address problems such as abuse or neglect our minds will not have to protect us from our environments. I hope that stories such as yours can raise awareness to others.

The mind is very adaptive and the creation of MP's appears to be a mechanism that allows a person to bear what would otherwise be unbearable. When in later life, the personalities have outlived their usefulness, is when I suspect a person seeks psychiatric help to reintegrate into a function person. They may not be consciously aware of this desire, but the cost of maintaining the severe compartmentalization and fragmented identies takes its toll. On a deeper level there would appear to be a desire to collapse these distinctions into a core personality. I suspect that minor variants of this disorder are normal, just as people take on roles, (mother, worker, child, teacher, et cetera), but that it is pushed way beyond the normal limits and forcibly segragated, as a survival/coping mechanism. In a sense then, I would not qualify MP as a disorder during the period it permits a person to cope. It is later, when it is an exaggerated and maladaptive behaviour that it is a disorder that needs treatment. My personal suspicion is that some of the entheogens,such as psilocybin could be useful in the proper setting and with a trusted and entheogically experienced.psychotherapist. In support of this ascertain, please read the following article:

http://www.maps.org/news-letters/v07n3/07318fis.html

The mind is very adaptive and the creation of MP's appears to be a mechanism that allows a person to bear what would otherwise be unbearable. When in later life, the personalities have outlived their usefulness, is when I suspect a person seeks psychiatric help to reintegrate into a function person. They may not be consciously aware of this desire, but the cost of maintaining the severe compartmentalization and fragmented identies takes its toll. On a deeper level there would appear to be a desire to collapse these distinctions into a core personality. I suspect that minor variants of this disorder are normal, just as people take on roles, (mother, worker, child, teacher, et cetera), but that it is pushed way beyond the normal limits and forcibly segragated, as a survival/coping mechanism. In a sense then, I would not qualify MP as a disorder during the period it permits a person to cope. It is later, when it is an exaggerated and maladaptive behaviour that it is a disorder that needs treatment. My personal suspicion is that some of the entheogens,such as psilocybin could be useful in the proper setting and with a trusted and entheogically experienced.psychotherapist. In support of this ascertain, please read the following article:

http://www.maps.org/news-letters/v07n3/07318fis.html

I have doble personality I had it since I was a kid, all I was told was that it was OK, that the other sensations were from my older brother who died after 42 days of being born, of whom I was given almost the exact name with the execption of the the midle name, unfortunately, I was not told it was going to stay with me all the time, I learn to coop or live with it, one is a, a lier, a, drinker, a sexaholic, and one is funny, good friend, faitfull, street and school smart.

Everyday I has to make sure who I woke up being, I would know if for no particular reason I begin finding excuses not do to something that need to be done, and all I want to do is first find sex online, and have a drink, at that point I can try to gain control of the situation, I could force myself to keep going but I know for a fact that at some point I would find myself back at home looking for troulble, what I do at lot of times is get completely wasted, so it won't continue, the other way I can ctrol it for a week is to have lots of vodka shots, that would cause it to hate any type of alcohol for 3 days, and the "normal would take over" and I get going with my daily life, it would happen again, what would do is not be honest to pleople if it happens more than once I would know, and would try to gain control again, so everyday is a battle, I hate alcohol it makes people act stupid, I hate to lie too it just make anyone who tell lies look untrutfull and un-trussful,
is not easy being me, but such is life, I try to gain control of it did not worked out that well it came back with vengeance, so I got methods now, I call a friend and say is happening again lets go bike riding or do something were there are lots of people,

I work in the medical field and understand that their are very real illnesses that people deal with on a daily basis. My patients are behavioral and we(care staff) all struggle daily for quality of life people. So I have no doubt in my mind that MPD is real, and I applaude those that face it, patients and Dr.'s alike, to find the inner strength and peace to "complete" a whole individual and live without fear and the unknown. DRAGON RED