Inside Karen’s Crowded Mind

I hope the grandfather, father and mother are doing hard time. Nothing is more disgusting than abusing one's own child, or not preventing the abuse. Lethal injection is too good for these abusers.

have DID and now basially have only 3 I am so frightened to post this but at times I had 16 seperate personalities I was always afraid being a child not knowing what would happen next. My sister and I had very difrent experiences from our father who was a member of the kkk but he wasnt the only member who belonged to that my father and my grampa and all my uncles did too

I have the same problem but with only one personality, one is a normal guy who reads computer books and stays on top of new technolgies, help people with computer questions for free, practice golf, which I enjoy very much.
The other one, likes to do everything that the normal one won't, he likes to drink, have sex for no reason at all, be a cronic lier, and most times would be successful on making the normal one flip out, it got worse when I turn 33, now I'm 37 and I found ways to control the un-normal one which what I call him, one is to do self satisfaction, as soon as I wake up that would stop him from thinking about it, that works just about 25% but most times it won't last long, I could be on my way out of the door to go workout or to do my daily routines when I would literally turn back and close the door and go online and look for sex, even though I know I don't want it, sometimes I would do it again, and that would clear my head, but most times I would just do what I know it would knock him out is get completely wasted, before I get into haven intercourse, that would stop him, but I know the next day or at any opportunity it would do it again.

So in short the normal me, is a very trusfull person, your normal bud that you hang out with
the other one, is a deceiving person, and sometimes even my face expression changes, but I live like this up to know and as long as I find ways to control him, it would be ok, ah yea one is also very very short fuse, while the normal one is a very funny person.

I read a few of the comments and I would just like to say that I know for a fact that that MPD exists. I discovered that my own mother had this disorder when I was a teenager. She grew up in a very abusive situation and then married into an equally abusive relationship. She never sought help for her disorder and died young from cancer. I actually spoke to her alter ego and tried to help my mother stay in control. It was a very stressful situation for myself growing up. I rarely discuss her disorder with anyone. However, I have known for many years that the movie "Sybil" and the "Faces of Eve" was not just fantasy film making. Its hard to imagine that something such as MPD exists until you have actually experienced it first hand.

It is so sad to read that people still doubt DID and are still talking about demonic possession and artificial memories. Being a survivor of prolonged sexual abuse by my father and having spent the last 13 years trying not to have flashbacks and overcome what I went through, I cannot imagine the amount of courage it takes people with DID to seek help. I personally know three people who have DID and they barely survived. Abuse is horrible and no one should have to go through it. Bravo to all the survivors who are speaking because we can't break the cycle until we can admit what has really happened to each of us and learned to speak the truth. Abuse is real and people like "Karen" are speaking out so they can heal and find wholeness, instead of the devestation and brokenness that was forced upon them.

This disorder is very real and occurs more than anyone in the mental health field really want to admit. It takes a trained eye and relative intimate relationship with the person with this horrifying disease. I know because my ex-fiancee has this troubling disease. I witnessed periods marked by intermittant trances, depression and increasing multiple personality changes. He finally admitted to periods of "out of body" experiences. It was clear he needed help. I am a professional nurse and am not confused about my final realization concerning his bizaar behavior. I would like the wonderful personality I fell in love with to be the final surviving personality...but other entities were stronger and more detrimental to that possibility. His sister also has this malady. I suspect much trauma in both of their young lives. I believe that the human mind is very fragile but yet strong to create these types of protective maladies to emerge.

It is too bad that we all are at the mercy of mental health providers' disbelief, because this very real disease is allowed to stay untreated and undiagnosed.

I can't believe this type of therapy is still going on.

I'm really facinated by this because I'm thinking of going into the field of therapy. I would like to learn as much as possible about anything that goes in that category and this really helped me relize that there's so much that i have yet to learn. Thank You

Passing judgement on any experiences here is too much. Each of us have lives littered with abnormalities and that is a burden for us to deal with. No one else. The paths into our own minds are our own and the journey to find OUR truth and role in this world will come in time and with deep investigating. You have to be ready to face the forgotten way.

Thank god I didn't have to go through multi personalities from the things my ex husband did to me and his daily trying to brainwash me. Instead I created a door in my mind and kept it locked. All the horrors went in there. Finally 22 years later and after enough courage and lots of bruises I finally sought out a counselor. The hard part is when the door is finally opened a crack, you have to relive everything but in the long run it is for the best because now I don't have to live with so much fear, etc... I wish the best to all who may have any difficult problems that are just too hard to deal with.

Passing judgement on any experiences here is too much. Each of us have lives littered with abnormalities and that is a burden for us to deal with. No one else. The paths into our own minds are our own and the journey to find OUR truth and role in this world will come in time and with deep investigating. You have to be ready to face the forgotten way.

Reading some of the comments i find people getting quite angry being accused of 'faking' as such and others not believe that the sickness is real. At the end of the day who cares what others think? Seek a therapist who will believe you and who will help you or deal with the problem as best you can. Stay on top of it, as someone said the people with this sickness are first and formost human beings, and so are all capable of controlling your mind and youselves and dealing with the situation whichever way suits yourself

I am here to tell you this is true. I am a child of a parent with this diagnosis. I was about 12 when I found out and had 3 younger siblings that I had to help take care of for my parents. It is a horrible disease that in my parents' case was brought on from early childhood sexual abuse. My parent couldn't help it, but they got the help they needed from one of the few phsychiatrists that actually understood it and helped my family. Not everything went well for us, and even though my parents have divorced and we are all grown up now we are closer than ever. The saddest part is that if my parent had never been a victim of abuse none of this would have ever happened. Everything written above is the honest truth about a disease that is rare but real. Thank you for reading this.

Reading some of the comments i find people getting quite angry being accused of 'faking' as such and others not believe that the sickness is real. At the end of the day who cares what others think? Seek a therapist who will believe you and who will help you or deal with the problem as best you can. Stay on top of it, as someone said the people with this sickness are first and formost human beings, and so are all capable of controlling your mind and youselves and dealing with the situation whichever way suits yourself

I spent 9 years working in a psychiatric day treatment facility for kids and teens. I can tell you that if you ever spent time with someone who has DID/MPD, you would not doubt the reality of this disorder. I worked with a high school student who clearly had the disorder. He was a sweet, quiet kid who had not been to psychiatrists and therapists before he was in day treatment. When he came to us, the home school gave us his journal in which he had been writing for months. It contained several distinctly different writing styles, levels of facility with the language, and handwriting. I saw the boy "switch" on numerous occasions in my classroom and in other settings, including group and individual therapy. I was able to recognize several different personalities when they were present in my classroom by his facial expression, way of speaking, and general behavior. Those who say this condition does not exist or is "created" in therapy, haven't seen the real thing. An excellent book that gives a great understanding of dissociation and DID is "The Myth of Sanity" by Dr. Martha Stout. It is a fresh way of looking at the subject that does much to enhance understanding.

yo yo!it ain't called MPD anymore. it' Dissociative identit d/o. DSM-IV