Bill Cosby Accuser, in New Book, Recalls 'Inability to Control Body' After Being Drugged

Andrea Constand, one of the woman who accused Bill Cosby of sexual assault, recalled in her new book the "inability to control my own body" after she took pills offered to her by the former entertainer, the Associated Press reported.

Constand wrote in her memoir released Tuesday, "The Moment," that she and Cosby met at Temple University, where he was a famous alumnus and she, a professional basketball player in Europe, also worked for the women's basketball team. The two bonded over a shared interest in health and holistic medicine.

When he offered her pills on a January night in 2004, she took them believing them to be herbal products, but soon discovered that her body was going numb, the AP reported.

"My inability to control my own body was utterly terrifying. At six feet, I'm the opposite of petite. ... I had never before, even as a child, felt physically intimidated by anyone or anything. I was an athlete," she writes. "But now I had no control over my limbs."

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Bill Cosby Accusers Releases Memoir
Andrea Constand has penned a memoir out Tuesday, Sept. 7, 2021, that offers a view from her seat at the center of the high-profile #MeToo case against Bill Cosby.This combination of file photos shows Constand, left, walking to the courtroom during Cosby's sexual assault trial June 6, 2017, at the Montgomery County Courthouse in Norristown, Pa.; and Cosby, right, arriving for his sexual assault trial June 16, 2017, at the Montgomery County Courthouse in Norristown. Matt Rourke/AP Photo

Constand remained something of an enigma over the years as her sexual assault allegations against Cosby played out in Pennsylvania courts and the public square.

An athlete and spiritual seeker turned massage therapist, she lived a quiet life with her dogs in Toronto until the case burst open again in 2015. She had remained largely anonymous during the initial police investigation in 2005, when a local prosecutor declined to arrest Cosby. And she signed a nondisclosure agreement a year later when she settled her lawsuit against the wealthy entertainer for $3.4 million.

However, after details of the settlement — including the amount she received — were aired in court, Constand decided to tell her story in her memoir. The book lands amid a stunning turn of events in the case.

Cosby, after spending nearly three years in prison, walked free in June when the Pennsylvania Supreme Court overturned his 2018 conviction. The court found that Cosby relied on an alleged promise from a district attorney that he would never be charged when he gave incriminating testimony in Constand's civil lawsuit — only to have it later used against him in two criminal trials.

Prosecutors in suburban Philadelphia must decide this month whether to appeal the decision to the U.S Supreme Court. Cosby recently turned 84.

"Now that I have weathered yet another strange turn in this long saga, I realize that I cannot let reversals like the (Pennsylvania) Supreme Court decision defeat me. Life is unpredictable. Much is beyond our control. In the end, happiness is all that matters and I am determined to live a happy, purposeful life," Constand writes in a late addition to the book, describing her new work as an advocate for sexual assault victims.

In a deposition, Cosby said he fell in love with Constand the moment he first saw her across the gym. Constand was half his age and dated women.

"I knew who he was, of course, but I had never watched 'The Cosby Show' and had no real idea how big a celebrity he was," she writes.

She took note, though, of the attention he commanded on campus: "His calls had to be returned immediately, his interest in our new locker room was promptly met with an offer to tour the facility."

She nonetheless found him to be "down-to-earth and affable."

She recounts the friendship and mentorship that followed, along with what she acknowledges were missed warning signs on her part, when Cosby made advances that his lawyers would later called evidence of an ongoing, consensual relationship.

Constand gave steady, unemotional testimony at both his first trial in 2017, which ended in a deadlock, and a second trial in 2018, when the jury convicted Cosby of drugging and violating her.

She refused to be rattled, even under a barrage of hostile questioning from the defense.

And she remained silent outside the courtroom, even as she emerged triumphant on April 26, 2018, when Cosby was convicted and a throng of cameras clicked at her.

But she offers a glimpse of her emotions in describing a secret meeting with jurors after Cosby's sentencing that fall.

"As we hugged, I heard the same words over and over: 'We always believed you, Andrea.' Of course their verdict told me they had come to the conclusion that my testimony was credible. But there was something about hearing the words ... that knocked the wind out of me," she writes.

Constand had never wavered in 2015 when asked to put her life on hold for a potential trial when Cosby's deposition testimony became public after a court fight by The Associated Press. And she agreed to do it again after the initial mistrial. It's not yet clear if she or prosecutors have the stamina for a third go-round.

Either way, she won't let a trial verdict define her, especially given the progress she sees in the #MeToo movement.

As she waited for the jury decision in 2018, she writes, "The outcome of the trial seemed strangely unimportant. It was as if the world had again shifted in some much more significant way."

Bill Cosby Accuser Andrea Constand
Andrea Constand, a woman who accused Bill Cosby of sexual assault, wrote in a memoir released Tuesday that she remembers the “inability to control my own body” after she took pills offered to her by the former entertainer. Constand smiles as she listens during a news conference after Cosby was found guilty in his sexual assault retrial in Norristown, Pa. on April 26, 2018. Matt Slocum/AP Photo