Britney Spears Says She's 'Never Had Seconds' at Dinner: 'Traumatized'

Britney Spears has revealed how she is getting on with her life since the end of the conservatorship, admitting that she is now striving for "more."

In a candid Instagram post about her struggles to accept herself as a person and not just a stage performer, the 40-year-old pop star told fans that she has never had seconds at dinner, even if she really wanted them.

Spears used this example to explain why she always felt she didn't deserve "more" of anything.

"It's crazy ... social media 📱 ... everybody's life seems so perfect and when I post things I think most of the time I've been utterly and completely embarrassed of my past ... and who can forget those documentaries 🎥 ???" the singer began her post.

"So yes, I do try and post me looking my best or what it may seem to be the good life ... well the truth is, my spirits are better but I will forever be traumatized by my past experience for life 😔 ... there is no way to fix me, my emotions and my sensitivity ... therapy, all of it !!!"

Since emerging from a 13-year-long conservatorship, the "Lucky" hitmaker has been enjoying her newfound freedom and documenting her new experiences widely on social media.

Spears' conservatorship had seen her personal and financial decisions taken out of her hands since 2008. The court-ordered arrangement was eventually brought to an end on November 12, 2021, following a hard-fought legal battle.

"I think I will need some sort of miracle for my emotions." she continued. "My life is by no means picture perfect ... I cry myself to sleep most night ... I'm insecure as hell ... I don't know how to have good posture unless I'm on camera 📷 ... and I need to go to a school just to be taught how to freaking walk 🙄 ... I know you say 'but you are a performer' ... well that's it !!!"

Spears went on to say that her persona is an "act on stage" but in real life she has "no clue," despite "working" on it.

"I'm so lazy and I'm learning the word 'MORE' ... I've never had seconds at the dinner table and I know ESPECIALLY in LA a lot of people starve themselves but it's weird ... I WANT MORE lately 🍽 ... does that make me a bad person ???" she asked.

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Honoree Britney Spears (L) and Sam Asghari attend the 29th Annual GLAAD Media Awards at The Beverly Hilton Hotel on April 12, 2018 in Beverly Hills, California and Spears at an event on 14 December, 2006. Getty Images

"It's weird just the other night someone made me the best mac and cheese ... I swear I wanted more so bad !!! But I didn't do it then I thought about it 🤷🏼‍♀️ !!! Have I ever had seconds ??? It's called MORE and maybe MORE isn't so bad ... and opening to MORE and the DOOR 🚪 !!!"

Earlier this month, Spears lashed out at her mother and made heartbreaking claims in a previous Instagram post, accusing Lynne Spears of knowing about the conservatorship for "two weeks" before she learned what would be happening to her.

Spears accused her mother of hiding coffee from her in the mornings and of removing her picture from her home and only displaying ones of her other daughter Jamie Lynn Spears and granddaughter Maddie.